Lemme just let it out then I’ll sleep.

  • Something is in the way again. Something is blocking my path to happiness and I have no idea what to do about it. I feel lost. I feel like something is missing, but I don’t know what it is. It’s like… the night ruins you. The night ruins your mood, your outlook. You replay everything in your head and wish you did something else, but no matter how many times you replay the scene over and over again, you can’t do anything. You can’t do anything except wish and hope for a better tomorrow.
  • I’m not losing myself. I’m not. I know I’m not. Something is just missing. I wish I knew. I wish I could figure it out. I wish I didn’t care as much as I did. I wish I could go back to that “dgaf” mentality and I’ll be sane again. I won’t care if you like me or if you don’t. I won’t care if I haven’t talked to certain people for awhile. I won’t care about my future, what God is basing me on, I won’t care at all and I’ll be fine with it.
  • What else can I say? I’m an emotional wreck? I’m a self-centered person? Man, you have to learn how to make yourself happy, you need to learn how to love yourself before you try to please anyone. That’s the number one rule on respecting yourself. I followed it then I broke it after I had it all. Living in the moment sucks. My mentality is getting worst than ever and I’m letting it. I’m complaining about it instead of doing something about it. I need to knock some sense in me and look on the positive side. I wish I could be mad all the time again. I don’t know what life I like better. Where I fake it all or where i tell the brutal truth? What sounds better… what sounds worst… what sounds me?
  • I can’t say everything I want to say all at once because my life is so disorganized, but I’m pulling through. I’m trying my best to do so, but I feel like it’s not working. I don’t know. I wish … I have no idea. Just don’t cry. Don’t you dare cry over something you know that’s not worth it. You’re stronger than that. You know that, the people that care about you knows that, so don’t give in to self-pity.