It’s not right that I think we should end up together because that means I take back everything I have ever said. I know you’ll take me back in an instant if I ask for you back, but if it was the other way around, I would think about it for days. You’ll always have a place in my heart and I wish I had the same feelings as I did. Lately, when I talk to you, I know you’re not going anywhere. I know you won’t lie to me, I know you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. I’m just happy that I got to know you. I’m happy I could make you smile and I’m happy that you could rely on me when you need me, but something is stopping me from asking you back.

I don’t want us to end on bad terms again, I don’t want us to be committed to each other and we end up finding someone else because that will break me. There’s something about you that is telling me that I should spend more time talking to you, but I know I shouldn’t. It’s a leap of faith, but I’m not ready.