As much as we fight, &get pissed. &call each other hatred names… I never imagined you saying to move on… You inspired me through it all, You inspired me to keep moving forward. past is the past, look forward for a brighter tomorrow. Remember that? Remember when you told me about that when i was about to cut myself? When we were still in the same school… when you were MY bestfriend . When you were there for me. When we didn’t change. I want to go back &pause those moments. I miss it so much. But what can I do? You grew up. I guess I didn’t. I hate how we drifted away. I hate that this happen. I should’ve just gave you space. -___-“”” I’m like the worst. &maybe I am selfish as you say. Maybe I am a hypocrite. I don’t know who I am. I told you i can never find myself anymore. I don’t even know who I am. But maybe high school got you too on locked to even realize it. You said we were going to be strong til the end. Maybe this is the end for us? You said I always had &always will have you in my heart, deanna. Am I still there? I don’t think so. Ergh, Ally is right. No more, giving my all. But, isn’t this whole friendship about giving it your all? I HAVE NO IDEA. This friendship just drifted away, so I didn’t know what to expect anymore.