You promised me we would never drift. You promised me we will always go to each other when something comes up. You promised that we will never forget about each other. You promised me that no matter how much bullshit we go through, we’ll never leave each other. 

But you’re the reason why I think promises are bullshit. You promised in the spare of the moment. You promised because you thought that it was a temporary thing. You promised me that the memories we have will never end, yet I’m stuck here thinking that one day, you’ll remember those promises again and we’ll go back to how we were — friends. 

it’s been awhile since we’ve talked and I miss updating you how I am. I miss calling you my bestfriend even though we’ve drifted too far apart. I miss being able to actually have a guy best friend. I miss being able to have you relate to me more than most people and your wise advice. I miss being able to learn from your mistakes and do things better. I miss being able to be there for you when you had no one. I miss being able to just … be that person you can count on. 

We’ve drifted. You’ve found other people to … I guess be there for you better than I ever have. I guess I wasn’t a good enough of a friend for us to have a healthy friendship. I check up on you everyday still even though I doubt you even remember I still exist. I always wonder how you’re doing and I always pray that your life will hopefully be something you’ve always wanted. I hope one day, our friendship will go back to normal when I come back but if not, then I’ll only remember how close we were and the impact you have been in my heart. 

charweenie:

It’s nice to know I actually have some real friends. The ones that just ask if I am okay or how I’ve been. No one really asks, and the fact that they check up on me just shows they actually care. I’m happy to have some real friends left, unlike those fake, two-faced people.

(Source: lalalalalacaitlinmay)

mellokitty:

I don’t regret drifting from you.
Sometimes, I reflect on our friendship, then I realize that all of its perks and problems are all in the past.
I’ve got to keep looking forward.

awyshacakes:

fiiizaaake.

LOL

(Source: love-tamaron)

Mother’s Day! (: 

• I miss my boyfriend! I’ve been missing him all weekend and I don’t even know why ): I wish he had a phone or his iTouch back!
• Woke up early! My dad made breakfast and we went to church
• Ate at Skylark with the pastor and his wife
• went home and changed my heels -___- my feet were hurting so much
• went to 100 yen store
• went to the nex
• went to the ginza! I WANT A TIARA TO WEAR FOR PROM! I AM THE PRINCESS AND IDGAF IF I’M EVEN A SENIOR OR NOT. #BOWDOWNTOME sike. LOL jk. but brsly, i want a tiara. but my mom was like “you’re not a senior. you’re going to look retarded” well not when everyone’s vote is a joke this year. they’re making seniors look stupid and voting for people who don’t look good together and whatnot. Pretty funny, but still. I want my damn tiara
• went to church again. 
• talked to my pastor and told him “Pastor, before I left San Diego to go here, I prayed hoping my life will be better than it was back then and so far? It has been the best time of my life.” :3 I’m not kidding though. Japan is doing me too good that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
• Went to Aeon and got dinner
• ate dinner at home
• cleaned up 
• checked up on you like always. Sigh. ‘/ I just wish things didn’t end like how it did. I just wish… you were there like how you promised me you would. I wish  you weren’t on an emotional roller coaster like how you are every damn day. I just wish I could help, but no matter what I do, you don’t accept it and then you forget about me. It’s whatever though. It was always the same routine for three years; this was probably for the best
• I checked up on you too. I wish you could be happy like how I always wanted for you to be. I thought me and you not being together would let you see that there are bigger and better people out there for you that you deserve and not how I treat you. But to a point where a phone call made you lose control and not talk to me for a month so you can get over me honestly killed me. I wish things weren’t so complicating
• Lol yeah. thoughts about today… 
• I still miss my boyfriend though. :3