I looked back at the people I had flings with and went to see how they are now. 

Damn, how time flies. I can’t believe you & I we’re talking at one point. You meant something to me at one point. At one moment, the only person I wanted to talk to was you; the only person I wanted was you. 

Today was a good day once again!

• Oh you know, that daily morning routine. Text, shower, text and text some more throughout the day. (:
• Honors was whatever. I still hate it though.
• Went to the library during P.E. and played a little tennis.
• Planning Jessica a surprise birthday dinner with some of the softball girls and soccer guys! (:
• Did whatever in Algebra. I had 1 hour and 30 minutes to decide to sit next to you since the person who sits next to you is absent.. why didn’t I take the chance though!? -___- So sad.
• Ate lunch at Sasha’s again :3 
• I was so alone during Seminar so I had a talk with Mr. Best and I told him about Jay. He’s like, “I think you should go for him. He’s a really good kid. Do you see the difference between what I say about him and the last person you told me about?” I got you Mr. Best. Haha :3 
• Talked to Keoni and Josef during the bus ride home. WHY DOES EVERYONE KNOW THOUGH!??!?!? Oh my gawd. It’s only been like 3 days too. Motha fuckaaaaaa. Whatever. Josef was like, “He was so sad that he can’t take you out on your date tomorrow.” “WAIT DATE? I thought it was just a hang out?” “oh my gawd deanna. You’re so stupid.” LOOOL. I love Josef :3 But he told me that everyone is already talking about it and he basically ruined the surprise. “I think he’s going to make it up on valentine’s day.” :3 Hahhhaa! But uh, “He doesn’t know where to take you because he’s new to this stuff. I mean he had girl friends, but they were always so forceful.” Hmmm :3 
• Lol, I don’t know. I mean, I’m kind of getting tired of people going up to me or whatever about this, but isn’t that what this stuff is about? i forgot really because I’m so used to that Down Low shit that I forgot. It’s funny though. He’s so sweet.
• He’s playing soccer at the moment though, so I’m being a loser and stay at home with my mom because my dad and my brothers went to the little valentine dance :3 hahah how cute but so sad because I’m at home.
• I’m happy my parents know though.

“If you deserve it and you’re patient, you’ll get something that you weren’t expecting.”

Tired of negative people, tired of people forgetting me and pretending they know you when you get mad about it. So tired about just always being the second option. I’m tired of people always questioning their worth, I’m tired of people just doing negative shit to make me feel down. I’m done. I’m really really happy right now because everything is going my way. Busy Life > Boring Life. I’ve been waiting for this change for like forever! I’m not even kidding either.

I just need to get my grades up in school, then I’m good! Actually, my grades aren’t even bad. :3 I just need to study more.

Today was a good day! (:

• Didn’t want to go to school, but I ended up going anyway.
• Texted him first thing I woke up. Texted him throughout the day and still am! Loooool. He told me he likes me…. He told me wants to hang out on Friday. I told my parents about it and they’re letting me… LOOOOOOOL. Omfg. I didn’t tell him I like him because honestly? It’s too soon! Rushing things much? But it’s whatever. I got this.
• Took the essay test for honors. Took a test during journalism. Talked to Sam during culinary and didn’t do anything during culinary either because we didn’t have a job to do. Hah.
• Ate at Sasha’s house (: Loool. I love her. Our moments together are stupid, yet hilarious. 
• It was funny during bio with the freshmens. <3 They’re so stupid. Lool. Bought Sam, Jessica, Sasha & Nikka a candy gram! Too lazy to make white chocolate.
• Hung out with Sasha and Zak after school! HAHA, it was so hilarious hanging out with them once I got comfortable around Zak. He’s too nice (:
• Took the 505 bus home and talked to Kina. I told her about Jay and I love what she said to me. “You seem happy now. You deserve it, you know that right?” (: Listened to AM Kidd - Today. It relates to me SOO much. Not even kidding.
• Went home, did homework, texted him, ate dinner, did more homework some more. Lol I don’t know. I feel happy. I’m excited for Saturday, yet nervous? I mean… what do you do when you hang out with someone you have a crush on? LOOOL. I have not been in this situation… omfg.
• “What do you want to do?” “I don’t know. Surprise me.” “Okay, I will (;” haha. He knows how to keep up a conversation and he’s actually getting to know me.

I’m just content with life. I feel like I’m going to be stressed out sooner or later because softball season starts officially on Monday. So that means everyday practice, coming home late and then staying up to do stupid homework. Yeah… We’ll see how I’ll balance everything out. Enjoying every minute of everything now! *Positive mindset! :D

Hehe.

• I got the text message I’ve been waiting for. (:
• K I’m going to bed then. Goodnight!

Please snow. Fuck I see it snowing. NOW LET IT STICK.

When you stop texting whoever is texting you except him. Getting all giddy when you see his name appear on your phone. Catching yourself smiling at your phone like a loser. Happiness arrives, butterflies fly around your tummy and you just hope it won’t end.

• When it comes to relationships, you trust her because she is your heart. If there’s no trust, there is no relationship. No matter how much your heart may hurt, sometimes, you have to think of what will benefit you in the long run. — My advice to my uncle
• I’m such a hypocrite.

• Don’t be afraid to tell the guy exactly how you feel and what’s on your mind. Ask him what he wants. Where he wants to take the situation. Let him know that you’re getting mixed signals and you don’t like it. Nobody does, duh. Hahaha. That’s assuming nothing had happened yet. If something did occur, good or bad, always keep that in mind. And if he can’t decided, decide for him. Or give him an ultimatum. Gotta assert every now and then.

• What my uncle said to me! ^^ He helps a lot. My reason of why I miss him a lot. He was always there when I needed it the most.
• Today was a pretty good day. I’ve been texting jay for like the whole last night and the whole day right now, nonstop. Hah. Not bad, not bad. It’s been awhile since I’ve done this. Getting to know someone new and who’s actually interested in what I have to say. Hahah, I love our conversations though.
• I actually knew something in Honors today! Woooot!
• Played Badminton with Sam, Daichi and Adam. I’m like, prone to get hit because Adam hit my eye and Daichi hit my forehead. Omfg. But i really liked today because there was a sub so we played music in the gym. I guess I benched? HAHAHA. Jackson & JB helped me. I was like, “Have you seen the spongebob episode where Spongebob was ‘benching’ and he lifted a stick with marshmellows?” HAHHAA I died. the guys are too funny though.
• Math was fun. Steven’s funny when he insults me. We had a sub too, so yaayy! Listened to music, argued about the problems on the worksheet and it was just pretty chill with Jessica, Steven and sometimes Juan.
• Lunch was lunch.
• Got my schedule for next year! So like, APUSH, AP-LANG, Chem, Seminar (Study period) Pre- Cal, and either Computers, career practicum, computer animation or Marketing and entrepreneurship, and for the .5 semester courses, I picked Web site dev/ mgt and Interactice Multimedia because Mr. Best (my coach) said he wants to me to take his class next year. At first, I was going to take psychology and econ, but I can always take that next year with government. SO yeah!
• Talked to Sasha & read her short story. HAHA, I died! “Sweetie” Her corny mind though. It’s cute though. I like it.

Been texting Jay for like forever. I started on my article for the newspaper and yeah. I’m pretty relaxed right now. I’m just hoping for a snow day tomorrow so I don’t need to go to school! (: Kbye!

Maybe the only reason why I want it is because I want someone to be there for me. To kiss my tears when they see it falling down my cheeks, to hold me when I’m feeling down, to hold my hand to know that they aren’t going anywhere.

Just knowing that someone is there that loves me is all I want, it’s all anyone wants.

• I really didn’t want to go to school today. I stayed in bed til 6:35 and got ready quick because I leave at 7 at the latest.
• Ms. Tanaka put me on the spot again. I hate when she does that. “Repeat after me…..” Blaaaaaaahd.
• Journalism was fun. It made me miss my uncles because Steven acts like them. Trying to annoy me and it works so I get irritated about it. “Why don’t you just ignore it?” “I can’t. That’s not in my nature.” LOL
• Ate curry in culinary and fell asleep.
• I laughed so much today with Jessica and Sam that I cried. HAHAHA. “Why are you so giddy?” “What’s giddy?” “You.” “Me? Is it another word to say you?” “Okay..?” “So like, Giddy wants to eat and Giddy needs to do their homework?” LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL STUPID. Jessica’s dumb. Sam & I were just dying.
• Did my homework in bio so I knew the answers for today’s discussion. I realized that I’m going to be alone when Sam, Jessica and Nikka leave next year o: Sigh. I like the freshmens. They’re funny.
• Read “I love you, Beth Cooper” on the bus. I just started it. Kinda napped in the end.
• I can’t believe you’re such a bad girl friend. He’s too nice for you. I would honestly go out with him and treat him 8912848123 times better than you do. Whatever. Guys don’t need to be treated like that. Fuck you, whore/ bitch/ cunt. looool
• I have a church dinner to go to tonight. I have softball fundraiser to go to at 12 and bowling + dinner with Jess & Sam. Busy weekend. Busy week and all I wanna do is sleep in. -___-

I had a scenario in my head today that if I were to die, I would go to Heaven. During the bus ride home, I thought about dying in the bus. What if we were going to drown and everyone lived, but I didn’t because the seat belt got jacked up? Or… what if I got out and someone’s seat belt was jacked up so I saved them and I didn’t get out in time… So I died anyway? LOL the things I think about when I have nothing to do. I just realized that I don’t want to die because of health reasons. I wanna die in action. hah.. I’m so weird. Kbye.

I’m not going to get over that.

How obvious can you get!? Omfg.

R: D.A.
J: S.B.
K: ____

Omg. really… really. reallly….

bunch of stupid people. But what can I say? You are a guy.

‘nuff said.

You actually think I don’t go through your shit. LOL caught you slipping.

You’re stupid.

#die

fuckyeahkhangtrieu:

Boys are the most interesting creatures that God has ever created. And, they annoy the shit out of me too. Forgive me Holy Father.

• The Oblivious One: Doesn’t fucking know that you like him. Acts oblivious and ignorant when you are hinting him that you like him. Why am I wasting my time with you?
• The Rude Asshole: Has no class or standards whatsoever. Think he’s all high and mighty just cause his tiny dick got sucked. Cocky little fucker. Thinks he can do whatever he wants, cause his mouth runs faster than a motor. Thinks he can put up a clean front. You ain’t no fucking BAMF!
• The Ultimate Cutie: Why bother? You know you’ll never get a chance with him. Unless you’re a slut. Maybe .1% chance. You know that he’ll never talk to you, but you still have faith and hope.
• The Conceited Whore: His looks gets what he wants. Boys, girls, transgenders, or whatever the hell his eyes desire. He knows that he’ll get it. He know he’s beautiful. He won’t be beautiful once I’m done with him.
• The Wallflower: Boring as fuck! Through IM’s, texting, phone, and in person. Do you talk?
• The Lowkey Douchebag: Looks nice, cute, and charming. Until you tick him off a little, and Hiroshima starts all over again.
• The One Who Won’t Shut Up: Talks more than he can walk. Thinks he knows everything, and will argue with you to death to make his damn points.
• The Creeper: Enough said!
• The Hard To Find: He’s out there. But you have to go through a bajillion failed relationships to get to him. He’s the reason why you’re not giving up on love. But he’s also the reason why you want to give up, because many obstacles and challenges were thrown at you, before you get to him. Good news is, you don’t give up. He’s also known as The One.