It’s Mother’s Day! (= My mom is someone I can honestly count on. We get in fights now and then, but she is truly someone I can be proud of to call my mom. Our bond has grown ever since I moved and I’m happy that we have grown to understand each other. I love you, Mom! 

Thank you to everyone who checked up on me! *Ahem* Melissa, Bender, Roey & Candare! <3 

• I forgot what i did in honors
• journalism? Took a test & the only who got a B! Yeeeuh son
• Ate our menu during culinary! It was soooooo good! 
• Stayed with ze homies during lunch for like 15 minutes and got picked up from the parents
• I still love you, short stuf! Just saying. 
• Went to the nex, practice got cancelled so I ended up not going back to school
• Went to the thrift store! 
• Picked up babe to watch a movie with the family! (= Watched Act of Valor! Good movie
• Stayed up til like 1130ish so i can finish my homework ): 

Das it. I’m a day late. toodles

• woke up early and had breakfast! 
• texted da homie uggz all day! LOL i would have been so effin’ bored without him to entertain me. blaaaaaahd
• talked to Melissa (: 
• rode the damn car for an hour to find some castles… i was expecting that princess kind of castles… nah! it was a temple! -____-
• took two hours to get where we had to eat. omfg. spent the whole day in a car
• went to the nex after we ate to get some things for my grma. 
• at home now! took the trash out with uggz! loooooool homie g loves me! LOL 
• I’m bored now! 
• I miss my boyfriend. 
• ok?
• ok

The other day, my mom & I got in a fight about my name on my sweater for softball. She was explaining it to me while I kept trying to tell her my reasoning behind it. We started getting pissed off, she started yelling. I got tired of it and I said, “Can you just stop?” I went into the kitchen and I cried because I was frustrated that day with everything else. 

She got up from her chair and went into her room. I started cleaning up when she left and my dad went to talk to me. He tried explaining my mom’s point. I understood, but it would be nice to say it calmly like how he was. He told me: You and your mom’s relationship right now is better than it was in San Diego. Am I correct? I nodded. I think you should say sorry to her. Not because you think she’s right, but you understand what’s going on and it’ll set a agreement. But only if you want to. 

I didn’t say sorry that night, but my mom & I pretended nothing happened. (That’s how we always are). The next day, I was in a better mood. I went up to her before she left for church and said: I’m sorry about yesterday. She explained to me that she just wants me to know my name is unique. There’s a meaning behind it and she wants me to embrace it. 

Today, I went on Facebook and looked at her wall. I see this: 

Everyone told me having a girl is difficult as she grow older, I experienced that. Now that she’s growing. Our relationship is getting better. She’s now learning how & when to apologize when she’s wrong, because I also learned when to stop talking & just listen.

It means a lot because our relationship did grow. Our relationship is better than how it ever was. I keep telling myself to just get half way with her. Just talk to her. She’ll listen. We’re both girls. We’re both hard-headed. We both hate to be wrong. If you have so much in common, then might as well take advantage of it. 

talking to babe on the phone and he’s asking “what does this have to do with tumblr?” 

• Honors was whatever. Getting irritated with her.
• Hate. Ms. Locker. She yelled at me today -_____- Omfg. But we watched Kony 2012 today! So sad~ ): I want to make a difference. 
• Just edited crap during 
• Had lunch with my boyfriend and he’s stupid because he is making me tell him crap that I don’t want to.. :3 I DON’T CARE IF YOU SEE THIS. loooool. (I’m reading what I’m writing.)
• Yes my Dj have a bf now. She manages her time with school sports, maintaing high grades and church, I think she’s doing great! If you have nothing nice to say about that then keep it! My mom said this on Facebook and it made me really think. I don’t know. Like, it made me sound like I was that girl. The girl that I’ve always been wanting. :3
• Left practice early
• Stayed home by myself and ate. 

Kbye. can’t go in details cos SOMEONE is bugging me. Kbye :3

Don’t mind this

I just realized how family oriented I really am. I do love my family. Family over everything. I want to watch my siblings have a better future than I will. I want to watch my parents grow old together and pay them back all they’ve done for me. I want to have kids and tell them all the stuff that I did when I was younger. I want to have a successful life so my parents can tell themselves that they did a good job raising me because they did. No matter how many fights I’ve been through with them, the tears, the disappointments and the anger and frustration I caused them to have, I’ll pay it off in due time to let them see that they something right for me to end up like the way I do. 

Today was probably the best day I’ve had in a long ass time! 

• Woke up at 8 o’clock and couldn’t go back to sleep because I was too excited (:
• Ate noodles for breakfast, went to Sunday school/ church! I just realized that I’m going to be missing a lot of church since sports! it’s okay I guess, at least I’m keeping myself busy. 
• I swear, my mom was more excited for me than I was. My dad was just driving and shaking his head the whole entire time. LOL it’s understandable though, I’m the only daughter. 
• Guess what doe? Someone’s finally taken after 39823828829382 years. LOL jk. It’s only been a year and a month… tah! But yeah. I got a boyfriendddddddddddddddddd! LOL ok. 
• Went on a date. I really wish I took some pictures, but today was just pouring rain. 
• Well got dropped off at the nex, waited for him to get there for about 10 minutes. Walked to the bowling alley and I was too lazy to play so we played the car game in the little arcade and I beat him! ahhaha! Went bowling… he beat me -__- whatever! I just sucked that day. But uh, walked to the movie theater and watched joyful noise. His corny self asked me “Will you be my girlfriend?” in the middle of the movie. Lol that corny shit guys would say “You’re so beautiful”, but like… I’ve never really been called that. In person I mean, while you’re hugging me or whatever the shit we were doing when we were sitting down. well went to harbor view and ate lunch/ dinner, whatever. had an adventure… kinda sorta, not really. I don’t know! today was really fun with him though! taaaah, it’s so cute how he paid for everything. “No no, I’m not going to let you pay for anything” (: <3 I really want more days like this with him. 
• Went to evening service. 
• Had dinner with the fam. 

Ok. Today was fun! 030412 @ 2:38 pm! TAAAAAAH! Oh how fun it feels to say that I actually have an established date. Just saying! I’ve just been waiting awhile! Kbye <3 

• Honors was irritating. Who reads a children’s book… Whatever. fell asleep in that class anyway.
• P.E was fun. I pushed Sam down… HAHA. She’s like the bestest friend ever. Along with my other wolf pack clan.. Jessica & Nikka! :3
• I thought algebra was hard…. what the hell. I just had to know it thoroughly. 
• Lunch was fun. Ate pizza! 
• Watched videos during seminar. Just chilaxxxxed. 
• Had practice! Scrimmaged against the guys! we lost, but we’re getting better at batting and fielding. It’s just we need to work on pitching a lot! I need to work on it too -__- uhg. But we didn’t have to run! :3 hahaha so happy!
• Well no ones home. I’m by myself. Everyone went to church, babe’s busy and I’m just here listening to sappy music… HAHA.
• I’m going to clean so no one has to do it when they home and shower and eat after. :3 I’m a lovable person. Jk. I don’t think I’ve done anything around the house for a long time, so yeah. Besides I skipped church because of practice, so I think my family deserves a night off. [:

Woke up early to a weird dream -__-

• Oh and I also woke up to a sweet text :333333 HAHA. 
• Honors was whateverrrrrr
• Showed a new girl around the whole day and instead of having lunch with Jay I had lunch with her. Waaaah. It’s not that she’s bad or anything, but he’s leaving tomorrow… I don’t know. I keep missing him… It’s kind of weird because I haven’t had this feeling before…. so weird.
• journalism was whatever. Got yelled at by Ms. Locker… Lol so funny. 
• Culinary was whatever too. Made up recipes for the project with Steven and Maleaha! 
• Had lunch. I. Hate. The. Cafeteria. 
• bio was whatever too.
• Had indoor practice and just kept going over plays. 
• Went home, talked to my “boyfriend” for like… 2 hours. <3 hahahaha. Our talks are so stupid. 
• Okay. Today’s whatever. My mom has been yelling for no gahd damn reason. -____- hush.

Okay. I’m kinda irritated. Kinda not. Okay bye. 

I honestly forgot what happen today (yesterday)

• I yelled at him because we fought the night before… lol
• didn’t have practice because it was raining
• yeah… got yelled at by my parents “just cos you have good grades and you have sports, doesn’t mean you can use the excuse of “i’m always doing homework” so you can’t spend time with us.” ok mom… lol
• yeah idk. LOL 

Today was a funny ass day! 

• Kept laughing and laughing with my table: Sam, Jessica and Bryan! hahaa omfg. I’m too funny. I kept laughing at my jokes and everyone was laughing because I’m stupid… haha
• P.E … LOOOOOL. funniest thing ever! Someone had a boner in the class… LOLOLOL. I was just dead. I told Sam and she was like, YOU ARE A PERV. Lol I told her “I haven’t done anything in 6 months, omfggggg.” “No wonder you’re so agitated.” LOL no… not because I haven’t done anything… well.. this is the longest I haven’t done anything, so i don’t know… so sad.
• I don’t know why, but I actually have conversations with Fred when I don’t like him…. yeah that’s sad too. Lol talked about soccer and me looking at peoples butts.. LOL Sam was like “Omg. I’m not even going to go there” F: wait whut? D: Nothing… HAHAH I looked at his butt. his butt is nice… HAHHAA k i’m done
• algebra was whatever. Got irritated because he expects us to remember alla dat shit… duh hell. Dat shit craaay.
• Lunch was so funny! I’m such a perv…. HHAHAHAHHA. I made Jessica finally say slut. “Deanna stop being such a slut” LOL priceless. :3 Anyway… yeah. funny things happened with da wolfpack! 
• Had an earthquake drill… talked about movies and pitching during seminar. 
• Practice was fun! Did basic things, I’m doing so much better at running! Finally!~ “Dude, I’m getting better at running” Nikka “I know! me too! You’re getting skinnier” HAHAHA. :3 Yessssss. But yeah, practice was fun with my team. I love my team. <3 OH and I slid today… LOL i slide so stupidly. 
• I haven’t talked to him all day. “You know, you guys should talk. It’s not going to go anywhere else if all you guys do is text all the time” “But we’re busy all the time. I’m willing to wait.” Lol i don’t know. I really do like him. I asked my mom… “Mom, do you think our relationship can grow just throughout what we’re doing now?” “Yeah. It all depends on the people. Me personally doesn’t like public relationships. So if you think what  you’re doing works, then it does” (: 
• Me & Nikka. “Dude, I don’t know what I should do! Help me.” “Well I think you should just go for it if you still want to.” “I do but you always criticize me!” “I’M YOUR BESTFRENENEMY! Of course I’m suppose to” Lol :3 I’m really going to miss her when she leaves. Our love/ hate for each other is so stupid. When we go pee in the bathroom, I wait pee then hold it so she can pee with me… LOLOLOL. So hilarious. 
• Kbye (: 

Good day with the Lord. (:

• Had breakfast with the family which was noodles.
• Called duh faggot to wake up :3
• Went to Church!  (: 
• Ate at McDonalds for lunch. 
• Went home and webcammed with da best friend Geann! :D 
• Had an hour and a half phone conversation with duh “boyfriend” lol :3 I miss him ): He’s so sweet. He babies me a lot too. lololol “There’s NO girl here in Japan for me. Just you.” :3 hehehehehehee. And “I feel like you’re going to leave me one of these days. you might get bored of me or find out there’s another girl better than me.” “Why would I leave you? You’re so entertaining.” “But I’m stubborn, and I get mad easily, and we fight?” “That’s what makes it entertaining… You start it, I end it.” :3 tahaha. 
• He reads my posts too now. It’s so funny too cos I rant about something and he’s like “Babe…. I read that already” FU. No you didn’t. LOL. I’m too open to him it scares me. 
• HI STUPID. GET OFF MY PAGE. K? K. <3 
• jk
• Went to evening service… I THINK MY DAD IS BUYING ME AN ITOUCH… LOL <3 he loves me, i swear. i’m such a pain in the ass though. 
• K, Just texting him now. Kbye bye (: 

No matter how many times we fight, she’s always there. 

She was there to tell me what’s real and what’s fake. She told me who’s treating me wrong and who I should really be hanging out with. She’s helping me out with my relationship right now too. 

I don’t know. She’s not a big fan of being sensitive and stuff, but knowing her, she’s one of the strongest people I know even though we fight a lot!