And I guess you found someone.

You’re finally happy. You finally found a girl that would make you happy and meet up to your standards. You’ve finally found someone to get over me and move on. I told you, it was for the best that I broke it off. I told you, if I was still with you, you wouldn’t have found this amazing girl you’re always talking about. I told you, you deserve better and you found better. I’m happy for you. I’ll always be here for you. I’ll always be your friend. I’ll always remember us. 

“I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.”
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Mother’s Day! (: 

  • I miss my boyfriend! I’ve been missing him all weekend and I don’t even know why ): I wish he had a phone or his iTouch back!
  • Woke up early! My dad made breakfast and we went to church
  • Ate at Skylark with the pastor and his wife
  • went home and changed my heels -___- my feet were hurting so much
  • went to 100 yen store
  • went to the nex
  • went to the ginza! I WANT A TIARA TO WEAR FOR PROM! I AM THE PRINCESS AND IDGAF IF I’M EVEN A SENIOR OR NOT. #BOWDOWNTOME sike. LOL jk. but brsly, i want a tiara. but my mom was like “you’re not a senior. you’re going to look retarded” well not when everyone’s vote is a joke this year. they’re making seniors look stupid and voting for people who don’t look good together and whatnot. Pretty funny, but still. I want my damn tiara
  • went to church again. 
  • talked to my pastor and told him “Pastor, before I left San Diego to go here, I prayed hoping my life will be better than it was back then and so far? It has been the best time of my life.” :3 I’m not kidding though. Japan is doing me too good that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
  • Went to Aeon and got dinner
  • ate dinner at home
  • cleaned up 
  • checked up on you like always. Sigh. ‘/ I just wish things didn’t end like how it did. I just wish… you were there like how you promised me you would. I wish  you weren’t on an emotional roller coaster like how you are every damn day. I just wish I could help, but no matter what I do, you don’t accept it and then you forget about me. It’s whatever though. It was always the same routine for three years; this was probably for the best
  • I checked up on you too. I wish you could be happy like how I always wanted for you to be. I thought me and you not being together would let you see that there are bigger and better people out there for you that you deserve and not how I treat you. But to a point where a phone call made you lose control and not talk to me for a month so you can get over me honestly killed me. I wish things weren’t so complicating
  • Lol yeah. thoughts about today… 
  • I still miss my boyfriend though. :3
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  • Slept in and woke up at 12
  • Called her. I guess we aren’t talking anymore.
  • Stayed home and watched part of princess diaries :P
  • Slept for like 20 minutes
  • Went to church 
  • Ate subway for dinner
  • Chores and now computer.
  • Texted Jessica
  • Now I’m here. Boring day but relaxing! I don’t want to go to school tomorrow! D:

Sigh.

I feel like I’m losing all my friends from the states. Drifting sucks. 

First my best friend and now her? Why? I guess I was right, me moving will test my friendships. 

meeliissaa:

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As to a reply to this, I respect your decision. I hope you get better. I’m sorry I made you feel this way. I’m sorry I even called you if it was going to end this way. I hope you keep yourself busy the whole May while I do the same. I’m sorry I can’t show you how sorry I really am or prove to you that I am. We’ll always be friends, you’ll always be my best friend that I can honestly count on and knows me inside and out. I’m sorry we can’t be just friends without you feeling this way. Please, just get better. 

You know, if my life was to my standards of perfect… my story would sound like this

meeliissaa:

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o_O

meeliissaa:

Who’s asking my ex girlfriend all these questions? Well just 2.

 Why you so curious? Why you no ask me? I never get asks. I was the cuter one -__-

I hope she doesn’t get mad if she sees this. LOL.

HAHAHA she will forever be the conceited one. 

Just looking at this makes me miss my bestfriends… OMG ): 
Anonymous:
❝whos your exgf? you like girls?!❞

Why do ya wanna know? Yup. 

Anonymous:
❝How long have you &your boyfriend been together ? Is he the one you fell hardest for ?❞

It’s going to be two months on the 4th! (: haha and um, I have to honestly say no so far. I fell harder for my ex girlfriend, but we’re two months in, so my feelings are bound to grow sooner or later! 

meeliissaa:

I wanted the moment to last forever. Our hands interlocked, my fingers caressing her soft gentle hand. Although I was just in my pjs and we were just watching a movie everything felt perfect, like how it should be. If I could freeze time or be able to save what I felt at that very moment as a file to open up whenever I wanted to I would.