Like a text message or someone’s status. Everything was going fine until you accidentally came across something you didn’t want to read. Or found out something you were better off not knowing. It’s almost as if it was posted just to purposely hurt you. But you constantly read it over and over again to torture yourself. It sucks how one little thing can ruin your whole day. 

(Source: cdeeezy)

I’ve been waiting to have a friendship that the other person cares as much as I do.

I check up on you, I make sure you know I care, I make sure you know that I’m still there for you even though I’m 8312831823 miles away from you. All I ask is for some reassurance now and then. All I ask is a message now and then that you miss me, all I ask for is a phone call now and then. Yeah sure, you’re busy but it doesn’t take a long time to just leave me something.

I’m tired of always giving out my love and I get nothing in return. Sometimes I wonder why I put up with people. I know they don’t deserve it, they know they take me for granted, yet I’m the stupid one that is always okay with it.

meeliissaa:

On February 21, 2011 I told you I liked you. I remember everything that happened that day. My best friend and I went to the park to work out. We always talked and texted and were able to just talk about anything, it kind of became a routine. I had these really odd and weird confusing feelings. I thought that we were becoming best friends until I realized you made me smile in a different way than a friend would make me smile. I wanted to tell you on the phone but I ended up texting it to you. You told me you thought it was cute and you’d get back to me on it and you continued talking to me as if what I said didn’t ever happened. That honestly broke my heart a smidge, haha. I have such a big and dramatic imagination. You know how in movies when you told someone you’re feelings they looked all shocked and would say “I LIKE YOU TOO” I was expecting that you’d do the same, I didn’t get anything from you. I just felt so stupid because you said you knew.

You’ve done things to me that seriously go down in history for the things that irritated and pissed me off the most in my entire life. You told me things but never really showed me. It broke my heart sometimes, I tried so hard to get you to see that I could treat you right, that not everyone is out there to get you. You’d tell me about all the people who broke your heart and I clearly remember sitting there and thinking “I’m going to change that.”

You are one of the most complicated people I’ve ever met, notice how I didn’t say “were” instead of “are” Although I feel I understand and know you quite a bit (that took forever, we had so many fights because of it) you’ll always be a mystery to me. I think that’s what I found so interesting about you. All the people I dated I eventually got settled and learned everything and anything there is to know. With you there were always things to talk about, things to learn about you. It’s hard to explain really, I felt we were comfortable but those butterfly feelings never left.

You have the ability to make me mad more than anyone, but at the same time you can make me the happiest

There is just something I find so fascinating about you, many things actually. I’ll name a few just because I know you’d like to know. I love how every time you get so mad at me and say you want me out your life and all that bad stuff I know that isn’t what you want, that you just want the situation to go away. I love how friendly you are, I envy it, it’s so hard for me to make friends. I love how you complain about your life, specifically the people, and when you say you want nothing to do with these people, that you don’t even know why you’re trying, I can hear that passion and love you have for those people in your voice. I love your laugh too, it makes me smile. I love when you tell me the things you only tell a few people, I love the way you say it and how you weren’t scared for me to know everything about you, that you trusted me. I love the way you care about people in a way that isn’t common, but in a way that’s more caring than most people I know. I remember once you said you had this bet with your uncle that you’d have the better house and car than him someday, that you’re going to be successful, and I have no doubts about your success. I especially have no doubts about your happiness either, you say how you’re not happy all the time, but I know you’ll eventually get to that state, and I hope I’m able to witness it.

Although we were on and off, and we did go through some rough times I don’t regret any of it all. I’m really glad we’re still friends too. You’ll always have a special place in my heart, we just connect really well and it’s so hard to find that with people. Thanks for always being there, for listening and just being you, and for continuing to do that.

I feel what I just said wasn’t enough at all, there aren’t enough words or the perfect words to comprehend what I felt, and what we went through, only us can understand.

You’re beautiful. She’s amazing. Anyone would be lucky to have you, I hope they’ll know that.

I’ll just leave this here.

The feeling of weakness is a feeling I will for surely not forget. The feeling of heartache is a feeling I will remember if I come across it again. It wasn’t hard to break down into tears, into depression, but it was hard — impossible to get back up on my two feet and tell myself that it will be okay.

I always wondered why you left me the way you did. Over a text. Giving me that We can still be friends bull shit. Yeah, let’s be friends after you ripped my heart into tiny little pieces. After hearing I don’t think this is going to work out, you would think it’s April Fools Day. You would laugh to yourself a little bit and be tempted to ask, Babe, you serious? Especially when you don’t see it coming. That Did you just wake up one day and magically not have feelings for me? type of thing.

Feeling destroyed, feeling like every bit of life has been sucked out from the Devil itself seems realistic if you’ve entered this path of life. This path that no one deserves to go on.

If I could do anything, I would like to go back and tell myself what I know now. If I could go back, I wouldn’t spend my months crying myself to sleep and hope that he’ll come back anytime soon, I would have kicked him in his boy area and be satisfied.

I’m doing fine without you. 

Like you never existed. 

Cool.

(Source: camillebadua)

You know what sucks? Your friends not knowing how to be friends. I mean, it’s possible. Your best friends are the only people who understands you, the people who makes you mad and happy all at the same time, but the one thing they can never do is make you feel better. Comfort you is more like it. It’s not that they’re bad people, it’s not that they don’t know you, it’s more like they’re not you.They don’t know how to handle your situation, they’re not used to the sympathy that you want because maybe that don’t know how to show it. Don’t blame them. Love them because they were there, that they’re listening. Don’t feel weak, but don’t feel like you have to be strong because you have to get on your two feet.

Telling people your feelings are not so wrong either. Venting to a complete stranger is probably the best feeling in the world because if they judge you, it’s not like you’ll ever talk to them again. More or less, they can be better comforters than your own friends. Venting to someone will make them realize that you do have feelings, that you’re not the happy person you always are, that you are human and break down like every one of us does. Don’t be scared to show someone that you need to let it all out. Don’t be scared to show someone how you feel. Even if it’s a ball of tears or a simple smile.

Back to square one, aye? Square one: You feel hopeless. You hate the world. You feel like everything is against you. You feel like you want to die because it will end your madness, yet you know that’s stupid. But then you get over it after a couple of weeks. You begin to forget what made you sad in the first place. You begin to realize that you should do you and make yourself proud. You want to make yourself happy because you’re tired of feeling helpless. But then after a couple of days/ weeks/ months of that, someone/ thing reminds you of why you overcame that weakness. Then you go through that whole process again. Then you feel like you’re back at square one. Well, you’re not. You aren’t at all back at where you have started. It’s a reminder that anything you have coming towards you, be prepared because if you can handle your “depression” mode from awhile back, you can handle whatever Life has to throw at you. Don’t be surprised, don’t be hesitant and don’t you dare cry another tear because you my dear, are one strong person. Even if you doubt yourself.

Get over him. He screwed you over, he lied to you, he made you believe that you were some chick he might learn to love, but really… you were one of his play things. Don’t feel bad for yourself because every other girl goes through that. It’s like another chapter in your life. It’s one step closer in finding the person you will finally belong with, but even though the guy that screwed you over made you believe that your this and your that, don’t for one second doubt that you’re not whatever he says. Confidence in yourself is one mighty fine thing to find in a girl.

Believe that you are beautiful because you are. Believe that you are stunning because you are. Believe that you are unique because you are. Believe that all the qualities you have to offer is great because the person who gets to call you theirs will be the luckiest person in the face of this earth to behold such a queen.

I’m a sucker for talented people.

1. Dancers
2. Singers
3. Guitar/ piano playing

I’m a sucker for just normal things.

• Cute smile
• Light colored eyes
• Chefs
• Family oriented
• Open-minded
• Always there for you

koaorquia:

…if you never do anything right. What I mean is, sometimes it’s hard to feel confident in something that you want to do, if the outcome always goes wrong. You start off with the best intentions and you give it your all, only to find that the world isn’t working in your favor. How many times has this happened to me - countless. It’s definitely a damper to your spirits, but one thing you have to remember is that you can’t live in the past. You can’t be scared to start something based on the outcome of something else. You gotta hold your head up, and last but not least, hope for the best. At the end of the day, that’s all you can do.